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    Seattle's "Know Your Place": Film Review

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    As you may know, I once worked briefly as a film critic in Hollywood. This is an essay about the first film made about the communities and spaces I now work in. A meeting of my worlds!

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    I won’t try to convince you it’s a great film. You can decide (watch the trailer here). But it is a special film, and not just for us Seattleites, nor just for East African immigrant communities. It will be both of those things for many of us, because it offers delights unique in our current cinematic landscape.

    1. The Big Picture

    As with American discourse historically, explicit mention of class is subdued in today's culture wars. You know that identity politics have experienced a renewed and forceful attention to race and gender, but what's often left out of the conversation is what every ethnic studies student knows: it's never just race, but always race and class. Films nowadays tend to depict either the incredibly wealthy or the spectacularly destitute. Now that the middle class has become the working class, where are the films about that vast swath of American life? The films about people who drive Honda Civics? Not everyone lives in either a back alley or a high-rise.

    Know Your Place is, to its great credit, not a political film. It makes its points by showing, not telling. The title reminds us of the pronounced importance that geography has in the identity of working-class peoples, but this isn't something the characters reflect on; they're too busy living the realities of their lives to academically analyze their inclinations. When a Black boy gazes upon John Gast’s painting American Progress, that symbolic epitome of White westward expansion, we are invited as viewers to reflect on the ironies and losses implicit; but the boy remains silent, and the filmmakers wisely refrain from telling us what, or how, to think about the moment. Contemporary studio pictures are desperate to tell us what we should believe; director Zia Mohajerjasbi feels instead more like a student of 1970s New Hollywood, wherein the audience was assumed to be perceptive, a crucial ingredient in ‘completing’ the picture, adding to it by supplying their own interpretation.
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    2. The Concept

    Know Your Place depicts a milieu without judgment, involving the viewer in Seattle’s Ethiopian community in all its rich complexities. We follow two boys over the course of a day as lessons are learned, friendships are tested, and insights are gained. The familiarity of this underlying structure is a useful counterpoint to the intense specificity of the world shown. Seattle's Rainier Valley, Central District, its ethnic enclaves and their secrets and joys– these have not been seen in American film before. We need the archetypal journey to grab onto, the better to be able to appreciate the local detail. Also, Mohajerjasbi goes further in his structural gambit, attempting and somehow succeeding in the deeply implausible prospect of a coming-of-age that happens within a single day. Our heroes, two teen boys with preciously undeveloped emotional registers, go about their day as many of us once did, deeply unaware of what we will later cherish and value.

    Do you remember the youthful days of careless abandon, both restless and happy, when the opinions of peers felt like the only thing that mattered? None of us were our best selves then, and the same is true here. Joseph Smith and Natnael Mebrahtu, nonprofessionals playing versions of themselves with impressive verisimilitude, exude the blustery aimless confidence they haven't yet realized would benefit from direction, introspection and vulnerability. 

    As in many immigrant communities, these children are desperate to be “American," to separate themselves from their families, refusing to speak their parents’ language and dressing, walking and talking in an inarguably West Coast urban vernacular. Only we viewers are made aware of the vast cultural knowledge these youngsters are throwing away. When an adult family friend and community member encourages them to embrace their heritage, pointing out that it's ultimately the central element of their identities and always will be, they are unable to respond with anything but dismissive humor… but in a beautiful moment of nuance, you can sense the idea is landing within them, a first seed settling, destined to one day take root. The ego death that cements one's coming of age may be a long ways off for these two young friends, but the birth of that journey is hinted at throughout the day depicted, beautifully, subtly, and with great nuance.

    Mohajerjasbi favors a cinemascope frame and wide lenses, together with a filmlike tone curve, to capture a lived-in authenticity that recalls both New Hollywood and the Italian Neorealists. There are echoes of Cassavetes in the naturalism of the performances– entirely by first-time actors and friends of the director, who is deeply embedded in the communities he depicts– and the quality of these performances is uniformly excellent, a testament to both the actors and Mohajerjasbi’s ability in coaxing such talent out of newcomers. As a director myself the challenge of pulling this off can't be overstated. Of particular note is an extended monologue delivered in a kitchen, in simple close-up, which has all the power of Ibsen or August Wilson.
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    3. The Place

    I had the fortune of seeing the film theatrically, and as an audience we gasped at the beauty of our city onscreen. This is not the Seattle of Sleepless in Seattle or Singles or even the wonderful Lynn Shelton pictures. It's the city of my passengers, an aged, ethnic and multi-seasonal beast, sometimes awash in fog and autumnal hues, other times blazing with hard winter light, alive to our famously mercurial atmospheres. 

    Additionally, no film has shot in the neighborhoods Know Your Place goes to: the CD, Rainier Beach, Little Saigon, Brighton, Sodo. Over and over I found myself struck by the emotional authenticity of the location scouting: when Mebrahtu steps outside of Sunset Café, the Ethiopian restaurant on Rainier and Rose, and gestures toward the train station for the next plot point, he's pointing in the correct real-world direction. When the boys miss their bus in Chinatown and we cut to them completing their walk at 26th and Alder, I heard the audience sigh at the reality of that distance. Some of us have walked it. 

    Things like this help a film feel grounded, even if we don't know the local geography. It helps the performances. Even moments that are geographically fanciful, such as a clever match-cut involving 4th and Edgar Martinez Drive, strike us as ingenious, causing us to see the city in a new way. In the most subtle bit of insider baseball, the first intra-bus dialogue scene, although shot on a diesel coach, actually features the sounds of an electric trolley bus in motion– as would be the case on a route 3 heading east on Cherry Street. They had to have known almost no one would notice that detail. But they did it anyway (did they know I'd be watching this??).

    The significant presence throughout of public transit, as a liminal but essential space where life happens, is likewise not commented on, but remains noticeable in its contrast to other films, which often lack awareness of this reality in working-class life. There are things a Hollywood screenwriter just isn't going to know.
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    4. Broadly

    There are these decisions and others, of which I'll leave you to discover. I'll mention just one more– the scene in which our heroes are accosted by an overzealous police officer. Depicting such moments on film is a fraught enterprise, as audiences often interpret them as broadly representational rather than specific, and the grating temptation toward preaching to the converted is strong. Mohajerjasbi chooses to intercut the interrogation with various adults of color confronting the camera silently, with calm and resilient dignity. He both undercuts the scene’s tension and deepens it, tying it to universal histories and asking us to consider the larger picture, in a way that lets us decide how we feel.

    Mohajerjasbi and his crew have created something that, in earlier times, would have made a huge splash. The corporate obsession to try to remove cinema from the domain of art and plant it firmly in the realm of product, of satisfying the quarterly bottom line, has reduced its cultural value. We used to expect films to comment on society, to reflect and refract the best and worst of our times in ways that were complex, edifying, and artistically trailblazing. Such work is now relegated to the margins, but our future film historians will celebrate, dissect, and advocate for these works with a vigor that will make us wonder how audiences ever bothered to watch anything else. (For a precedent of this, look at the highest grossing films of each year in the 1980s, a decade similarly obsessed with finance, and notice how many of the titles aren't even recognizable to us now.)

    Time sifts out the dregs. Know Your Place may not join the pantheon of canonized classics, but it will remain special for Seattleites for a long time. Is it a masterpiece? I use that word sparingly, so I have to say no; but does it need to be a masterpiece? Do we always have to rate everything, evaluate, have a “hot take?" Can't an artwork just be what it is, and can't we just appreciate what it has to offer, and what it makes us think about? Because there's no doubt Know Your Place does all that and more.
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    How I Live Now: 2026 Edition

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    I was taught, by my parents, by my friends and other family, by the art I've consumed, by films and books and stories– to contend with life. To engage, wrestle with, work through. To relish the totality of things head-on, and accept the gift of experience, be it joy or sorrow. I was taught to marvel. Because life, and especially human nature, contain such fascination for me, such mystery.

    At no point was I ever taught to hide from life.

    I look around and notice a change in the times. How long does it take to discover you're alone? I see my fellow sisters and brothers on the streets, in their cars, on the trains and buses and airplanes, at restaurants and libraries and cafes and everywhere else you see people, and I see they have found something else, something different. Present life seems uninteresting to them. Reality, and the people who exist in reality, have become things to hide from. 

    This confuses me.

    I watch my fellow humans, not with judgement but befuddlement, as they do everything they can to escape the present. If they're on drugs, they do it with drugs. Or alcohol, cigarettes, pot, coffee– anything but unvarnished existence. If they're not on stimulants, they escape using phones, earbuds, podcasts, scrolling. Endless scrolling. They obsess not over life but depictions of life, commentary on life, appearances. Simulations. As long as it's not the real thing… we're riveted. 

    Why do my fellow neighbors prefer being distracted to being focused? Why do we suppress our capacity for abstract thought? For connecting with others? Are these not pleasant, even crucial skills? 

    Do people imagine these muscles stay alive without use? 

    Nearly always I'll be the only person on the train not looking at my phone. At best it'll be just me, the seniors, and the homeless people. One night I heard a man next to me speaking in a clipped accent to his friend. “Only that guy right there, and that little girl over there with her picture book, sitting with her mom. They are the only two. Everyone else on this train is looking at their phone.”

    I looked up. Of course he was referring to me. I agreed and he smiled, that no one reads books anymore but I still do, it makes me feel good.
    “To do something real,” he said in his husky voice.
    "Exactly! I like to turn the pages.”
    "What is it about?”
    I was reading Henry James’ Portrait of a Lady. How to explain it to two young men who were clearly not readers, and for whom English was a second language? "It's uh, it's about this lady who's trying to decide which guy to marry. It's old, written like a hundred years ago, but they talk about the same stuff we talk about now, should I get with them should I not, what kind of life do I want to live. You know!”
    "Cool. I thought it was a Bible.”
    "I know, it looks like it. I have to have a book with me though. Because this will never run out of battery, never gonna freeze up on me–”
    "And it's actually real." Picture his hand gestures, clarifying his passion. “The phone, it's like junk food. You cannot trust anything on the internet. You can find one website that say vegetables are good for you, then another one say vegetables are bad for you.”
    "Exactly! People just read whatever they already think.”

    We reiterated the main points together. You've heard it all before. How this drives people apart, how it otherizes, prevents people from thinking for themselves. The speaker was a young man who grew up raising chickens in West Africa. He chided his friend, who was less introspectively inclined, for looking at his phone like everyone else. “What you looking at right now, bro? What's so important that you are looking at it?”
    Defensively: "ESPN highlights!”
    The first man shook his head, smiling ruefully. He and I commiserated for the rest of the ride. I'm guessing he hasn't seen Terrence Malick’s 2015 avante-garde experimental film Knight of Cups, in which a character presciently says, “Nobody cares about reality anymore," but he sure was familiar with the observation.

    Why do people wish for all experience to be secondary?

    Maybe I'm no different. My nose is often in a book, mentally somewhere far away. I'm often too shy to engage with strangers, giving in to that oft-untrue assumption that I'll be a nuisance if I speak up. When I sit still on the train, without a book, my mind is not present. It wanders aimlessly, without focus. I think back to Pascal, who in his 1670 Pensées wrote,
    ​We never keep to the present. We recall the past; we anticipate the future as if we found it too slow in coming and were trying to hurry it up, or we recall the past as if to stay its too rapid flight. We are so unwise that we wander about in times that do not belong to us, and do not think of the only one that does; so vain that we dream of times that are not and blindly flee the only one that is. The fact is that the present usually hurts. We thrust it out of sight because it distresses us, and if we find it enjoyable, we are sorry to see it slip away. We try to give it the support of the future, and think how we are going to arrange things over which we have no control for a time we can never be sure of reaching.

    Let each of us examine his thoughts; he will find them wholly concerned with the past or the future. We almost never think of the present, and if we do think of it, it is only to see what light it throws on our plans for the future. The present is never our end. The past and the present are our means, the future alone our end. Thus we never actually live, but hope to live, and since we are always planning how to be happy, it is inevitable that we should never be so.

    ​Sounds like another smartphone-infested day of the human condition. Maybe things aren't so much different now as they are more extreme. We have better– or should I say more addictive– tools now. We used to hide from the present by considering our past and future; maybe all that's happened is that we've found a third place to hide, the virtual. 


    And the virtual world is different because it prioritizes not authenticity but the appearance of authenticity, where the goal isn't achievement in real life but the depiction of that achievement in a digital space, a space where quality is measured by the only thing 2000s-era brogrammers could come up with: popularity. But metrics based on popularity encourage us to conflate adulation with value. In the midst of today's messaging, have we forgotten that those are not the same? Do we still possess the insight we used to have, the recognition that all of this smells funny? That our best self knows better? 


    For me, those moments I spend on the train letting my mind drift, with no phone or book to guide me, are valuable. Books (unlike headlines and news feeds) develop our capacity for sustained focus and abstract thought, skills which enrich my life. Even daydreaming helps me: it forces me to generate my own thoughts. Creativity requires boredom to exist. How will I know what I think, what I can create, if I'm only ever intaking other people's thoughts? How will I develop my own opinions, if I only read those of others? I don't want to just repeat others’ opinions. I don't want to just read about life, or simulate it. I want to live. I want to hear the sound of birds, traffic, strangers, neighbors, wind. I want to dwell in the place where all experience– happiness, pleasure, pain, sorrow, regret, triumph, discovery– is real. I do not know why this is. 


    But I must not be the only one out there.


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    How I Live Now: 2019 edition.

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    Nathan on City Cast Seattle with Jane Hu

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    Many thanks to Jane Hu, who first interviewed me for Slate during the dark days of COVID, for hosting me on this episode of City Cast Seattle. I love talking with her, as you can probably tell– check out our conversation, which is the first segment of the podcast below!

    City Cast Seattle: Affordable Eats at T-Mobile Park, Amazon Lawsuits, and Building Community on the Bus

    More about Jane Hu, who's written for every worthwhile major publication you can think of, here.
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    The Swagger I Love: Thoughts on My Fellow Operators

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    ​Originally written 7.29.2018. Every word still rings true:

    Yes, they vary wildly in temperament, outlook, attitude... but isn't that what you want in a group of people? Look at them. There are so many reasons to become an operator, and accordingly you really do have all walks working here. There was a time when most any trade or service job paid enough to raise a family with; those days are long gone, and with them much of the middle class. Bus driving remains a unique anomaly (to the point that saying thank God for unions, as I do, is less a political statement than a practical one).

    Some of them are authors, musicians, pastors, comedians, teachers, here so they can afford to live their passion. There are students, morticians, sports coaches, sneaking in for a few hours before heading off to the rest of their lives. Some of us have doctorates and MFAs (when the bus drivers in a city have four year-plus degrees, you know there's something wrong with the job market...). 

    For others, this is highest-paying job they've ever had. The gateway to a new life in a new country, a job that actually pays enough to make the dream real. Others are single parents raising children, or homebuyers, or here because the benefits will cover procedures and operations that are important to them, their families, paths to having agency over their lives. Or it's a second career, something you always wanted to do for a few hours a day. 

    Some of us just like to drive. The heady mental rush of stimuli.

    Some of us appreciate the faux-military nature of the outfit, perhaps familiar from earlier days. Others enjoy having coworkers who speak their language, who pray in their tongue and that of their forbears. And some of us really, really like the people, forwarding the tradition of being on this Earth to serve others. You know how it feels better to help others than to be helped, better to give than to receive?

    What all of Metro's drivers have in common is an remarkable amount of aptitude and responsibility. By any reasonable yardstick of measurement, it is difficult to get hired here.

    Every driver you see succeeded in jumping through hoop after hoop of licensing certification, written tests, appointments, aptitude tests, equipment knowledge, intensive customer service and operations training, driving tests... they showed up early to class every day for a month, because they knew if you're one minute late, you're gone. 

    They stayed up nights studying for the CDL walkaround test, memorizing all the different parts of the bus and what to look for when inspecting each one, so they could recite it and demonstrate their knowledge with no notes and no mistakes, as required. 

    They prepared for the infamous air brake test, the one so many of my friends have failed, which involves verbalizing and executing a series of fairly complex actions in a specific order. 

    They tried their hand at the even more infamous driving test, where you're thrown out onto the streets of Southcenter, with the full knowledge that if you run over even one curb, you're toast, and it's six months of waiting before you can reapply. It's six months of waiting with no guarantees if you fail at any of the above. All of my colleagues set themselves up for that challenge, applied themselves, knowing the stakes, and managed to succeed, every step of the way. 

    I find that impressive. 

    They show up to work now in uniform, every day, signing in within a grace period that's measured in seconds. I imagine each operator is probably the most time-aware person in their respective friend/family groups. I know I am....

    When I wave at my colleagues driving past, I wave out of solidarity. Only they know, truly, what it feels like to be behind that wheel. The particular aches in our shoulders. The way you can process the entirety of the city's demographic and traffic flow geography instantaneously, on a micro and macro level. How we can roll our eyes together at the zany and ridiculous chaos of these multitudinous streets, together knowing the weird safety in not expecting people to be reasonable or do things that make sense. We've learned the weird bliss of not asking too many questions, of exchanging logic for humor. 

    I love you all, my fellow brothers and sisters in arms. I love the lively chatter at Atlantic Base, and I love the mellow rhythms of North. I love you when you're happy, resilient, healthy in mind and body. When you help a blind customer cross the street... and when you succumb to the pressure and abandon your better selves. When you're insecure, standoffish and angry. It has its challenges, this gig; but we do it together. I even love you when you're watching that awful news channel on the North Base TV set. (Meanwhile, somebody please grab the remote....) But most of all, during every moment you inspire me by trying to be a good person.

    Jack, Jesse, Patricia, Kristina, Paul, Abiyu, Ibrahim, Catherine, Michael, Mitch, Mandeep, Mohammed, Greg, Dawna, Abdi, Brian, Tyler... the way they love the people. The way they keep an even keel, through all this ridiculous madness. Apathy is easy; they put in the discipline for something greater.

    Siret and I, both running late today, planning out a way to share the load using two buses leaving at the same time. The Control Center won't help us now, at the height of rush hour; we figure it out ourselves, with aplomb. Our combined efforts result in him getting a break at the terminal he wouldn't have gotten otherwise– and he spends part of it with me, sharing food from his home country by way of thanks, in brotherhood.

    The way we breathed a grin of exhausted relief at the end of the busy trip. No one else can understand the unique multitude of things contained in that grin. That's the swagger I'm honored to be a part of, and excited to share on this blog with you.

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    Things I've learned from other operators.
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    Podcast: Jonathan Evison Interviews Nathan

    Jonathan Evison, the NYT bestselling author and recipient of numerous literary awards, has been called "the most honest white man alive." Read more about Evison here. I feel lucky to be the inaugural guest for the 2026 year of his long-running podcast, "A Fresh Face in Hell," which is billed as "a podcast that challenges its audience to find inspiration and creative renewal in a challenging time." Hopefully the interview below gets within at least shouting distance of that. Thank you, Jonathan!
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    Shawn Yim 2026: Further Reflections

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    A year and change after Shawn Yim’s passing (read my essay on him here), I find myself having thoughts. 

    I notice that where there should be answers, there remain only questions. In 2024 I wondered if this event might finally be the one to galvanize our elected officials into taking action and cleaning up our city (remember, it's not Metro but our local governments we should be looking to: it isn't buses that are unsafe, but Seattle at large). 

    Unfortunately such hope has thus far gone unrewarded. 

    Nothing, not even fentanyl, is as addictive as maintaining the status quo. And the status quo bothers me because it favors the few over the needs of the many. It isn't just that people like Richard, Shawn's murderer, are suffering; it's that folks like Shawn, and Richard’s murdered roommate, and all their friends and family, have to suffer too.

    People who are a danger to themselves and others should not be left to rot in public, nor to act out as they please, with no regard for their neighbors. We naively believed people would obey laws even if there were no consequences for breaking them. We hoped people with problems would proactively self-select their own healthy solutions. What beauty there is in this optimism. I wish we lived in that world. 

    We do not. 

    Apathy is simply too easy, too tempting a thing to enact, especially if it's dished out to you daily. My friends on the street feel abandoned, ignored, and despised, and they accordingly respond with their own version of the same. As long as securing a job that pays for rent remains nigh-impossible; as long as basic needs and mental health solutions hide behind a forest of bureaucracy; as long as society works to make each person feel isolated, unheard and alone– violence will remain what it always has been: a voice for the oppressed. An opportunity to feel liberation, power, however briefly. A way of finally being seen. I see the satisfaction some of them take in annoying or scaring normies like me, they, who have a degree of struggle, and a degree of freedom, the rest of us will likely never know. 

    Recently my entire bus was harassed by a screaming person with schizophrenic tendencies who refused to leave my bus, resisting every polite, respectful, cajoling, and finally firm attempt by me, even after I was out of service. No help responded, and no security was in sight. All I could do was sit there as he ranted, myself a prisoner to his whims and his schedule, forced to watch as he declared he had COVID and commenced coughing on me, reaching up over the shield. I noticed I was shaking afterwards.

    We live in a city where such behaviors go largely unchecked. If you've never been a victim of street crime, this is easier to tolerate. If you have, it becomes harder to remember that systemic oppression enables and causes these behaviors. You notice what is also true, which is that Jeffrey (that was his name) in no way felt oppressed. He felt what he paradoxically also was: free. Jeffrey can be himself however his brain dictates, acting out against whomever and wherever he chooses, without consequences. What problem? I saw genuine joy as he toyed with me, and the others, a brain running on profane and gleeful overdrive. Any student of anthropology knows that societies cannot function without restrictions on individual freedoms; but how much freedom is too much?

    In my recent Elliott Bay talk I was asked how one would solve Seattle’s homelessness/safety/mental health/drugs problem. At the time I fumbled for an answer. If I were answering now I think I'd say that I don't think our elected officials or other power brokers will ever succeed in fixing the crisis... unless they can be convinced that it's a for-profit venture. I'm terribly sorry to sound so cynical but in our capitalistic society, I unfortunately think that's the only thing that will provide liftoff. Sort of like how the environmental movement didn't meaningfully get going until they figured out how to turn it into an excuse for people to buy stuff– cars, light bulbs, and so on. 

    The crisis needs to be presented either as an opportunity to make tons of money, or a scenario that is currently preventing the making of tons of money. And the thing is, it is possible to make that argument, with reference to declining property values vis-a-vis real crime and perceived crime, all of our closed storefronts, Seattle’s growing reputation as a dangerous place, etc. But this argument would have to compete with the current state of affairs: not solving homelessness is clearly very lucrative for somebody. I’ll let others do the finger-pointing here.

    Whenever this eventually gets solved, it will be too late. For now, more years will pass, and my friends on the street will continue to thrive within the confines they're given. As people rendered invisible by the system, some of them will continue to treat those around them with corresponding inhumanity. My colleagues and I will still be harassed, intimidated and maybe killed. My female friends– drivers, passengers, commuters– will continue to tell me the horrors they've suffered on buses and sidewalks, horrors which leave scars that never go away.

    My street peeps will tell me of the stunning inhumanity only they know, how it continues casually, a tide you can hardly fight against, the barrage of constant messaging telling you you’re worthless. We wonder why they walk into the middle of the street. I think of Delillo’s line from Underworld every time: “If you [believe] your life is worth nothing, only a gamble with death can gratify your vanity.” They will continue wandering out there, hoping for contact, and I will continue to deny them the pleasure. They may not value their lives, but I do.

    My passengers will go on telling me how they're investing in weapons, cars, tasers, e-bikes, plans to move away, plans to change their hours– anything but this. As the only person on the bus not allowed to carry a weapon, the only person not allowed to leave a dangerous situation, I listen politely, trying to remember the difference between real solutions and mere Band-Aids.

    And the systems in power will sing their considerate song while ultimately doing nothing for either side. Loneliness, the disease of every epoch but especially ours, will continue seeping into our blood, spreading, raising the walls between us until we forget that we are made of the same clay and have most of the same experiences.

    We will also continue to have hope. 

    We will imagine better worlds and wonder why our leaders aren't similarly interested. It will still feel electrifying to connect, commune, assist, contribute. The buzzing altruistic rush we feel when we connect with another, when we bring someone joy and belonging; who could forget how much better it feels to give, than to receive?

    What I hope most for in writing this despairing essay is to be proven wrong. I want our city's exciting new leadership to quickly render the above problems dated and obsolete. I dream of a day when the selfish apathy of our time reveals itself as a facade. When all our basic needs are met, and for that to be evident to us, because only then can we begin caring for those around us. Only then can empathy blossom on a large scale. 

    We will survive, meanwhile, and we will hope. We will take small steps toward goodness. It is what we can do, and what we have to do.