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    Le Park de Cal Anderson

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    There were people with dogs and people with children. The city ran around in circles, laughing in sunlight. It lay back on the grass with a book, or snoozed on the astroturf. We together, the world with a day off, or at least a few hours.

    I think you know the 1884 painting, Un dimanche après-midi à l'Île de la Grande Jatte, by Georges Seurat. I'm reminded of it every time I go to Cal Anderson Park, not simply because both involve parks. It's a depiction of the community at large coming out together, strangers and friends in pleasant company. The neighborhood's all here. It's inevitable I'll run into someone I know when strolling about the grounds. 

    As well, the longer one scrutinizes that painting, the more oddities one notices (is that a monkey on a leash? More here); so too is it true of being in Capitol Hill's busiest park. With time, the generations are slowly becoming less tolerant of bigotry, and the haven the Hill has always been continues to offer space for the marginalized– as well as just the plain old quirky– among us. The acrobats in my periphery, doing things I don't have names for; castoff kids in a scruffy circle, wearing more paraphernalia than clothing, giving each other the love and acceptance they perhaps aren't finding at home. 

    I'm with my friend, seated by the pool. It's a dirty green today, the sort of beauty you have to work with. Her natural blonde hair flutters in the warm breeze. We speak quietly. Another friend walks by, stroller in hand, and introduces her family. All is well.

    And then there are noises. Behind my friend, past her blonde wisps, beyond the pool; here is a man screaming into his phone. Big and tall, profane, shouting with his whole body. He happens to be African-American. He is bald with John Lennon sunglasses, with an ex-athlete's build, dressed down in something like an Adidas tracksuit and jacket. Mid-forties. He roared.

    And now here is another man, thirty-something skinny, trim and open black denim jacket, coiffed mustache, bearded, approaching. He happened to be white. He went up to the angry man, softly, easily. Hesitantly. I could see by their body language they were strangers. 

    The skinny fellow offered his extended arms in a hug. 

    He nodded a little. The big man took a moment to understand. His roaring trailed off, and he became still. They drew together, understanding. They swayed a little, like lovers, and backslapped a little, like brothers, holding each other in the present moment, quietly, in recognition of the deeper truths. I looked on in astonishment. What bravery! What intrepid nerve on the part of the man to offer that, and what courage for the other to receive it. Their silent peace was louder than all the noise. 

    It may have been the most beautiful thing I've seen in a decade.
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    The Way of the AJ

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    He was hovering near the front. You remember AJ from an earlier post, the stone-faced youngster in "Everybody Need to Quit Acting Hard and S**t." I spoke.

    "Said'joo graduated, right?"
    "Notchyet. Almost."
    "Almost. June of this year?"
    "Yeeeeah." 
    "Awesome," I said. 
    "I can't wait myself."

    His line was voiced as a declarative, minimizing any emotive tone. This, as you know, is the Way of the Samurai… and of the straight hustlin' teenager. What does the macho mask of thick skin ultimately represent? The fragile ghost inside, of course, vulnerable as any human. From past incidents, AJ knew I respected him, but he was wavering between the Habit (of the Samurai) and the risk one takes in opening up. I wanted to steer him toward that safer place, the space where people are soft and kind. I put myself in his shoes and got excited. What a glorious time graduation really is. 

    "Dude," I enthused. "That was the most exciting time for me, because it was like, finally. I got control over my own schedule!"
    He tried not to be excited, but gave up halfway through the syllable: "Yeeeeah!"
    "If I become busy, it's my fault, it's stuff I wanna do, instead of their stuff, you know?"
    "Yeah. I know whatchu mean. Das what's up."
    "Oh, I was so ready!"
    "I can't wait myself!" 

    It was like a take two, hearing him say it again. As though you'd asked your actor for a more enthusiastic line reading. No need for take three. The truth of his excitement had a name now, birthed in the smile of his voice. 

    He continued. "God, I don't even have to think about it, wakin' up early in the morning, decidin' when I I wanna go to college."
    I wanted to encourage higher education, do my part– but let it be his idea, not mine. Just suggest how it might feel: "Yeah, 'cause even if you do go to college it's a different game because you're choosing to go, and it feels different, you don't have to go. All of a sudden, it feels all right. It changes the whole game."

    "Yeah. Can't wait, man." AJ's cadence is slower, his head tilted slightly back, a hazy half-grin enunciating each word. "I'm gon' be gettin' on the bus first thing, tellin' you how I graduated."
    "Dude, I'm so ready. That's gonna be so beautiful. Thinkin' 'bout stickin' around Seattle, or maybe goin' somewhere else?"
    "Yeah, I'm gonna go to Houston."
    "Oh right on, followin' the sunshine! You got family down there?"
    "Eeeah." 
    "Cool. Houston, that's like the cool part of Texas. Houston and Austin."
    "Yeeeeah! Dallas, I went to Dallas, it was crazy."
    "Yeah? I never been there."
    "People, they're not nice down there."
    "That's not cool. I'm scared to go to Texas, man!"

    He laughed, a single gruff chuckle with a smile that lingered. There was a recognition of sorts there. The bus driver was talking about being scared, but he was still confident. Oh. It's in the little moments, the milliseconds of recognition, that we begin the process of steering our perceptions….

    About now a man waved at us from a zone. There's a newer soul who sits about the northbound zone at Othello these days– not one of the fellows across the street nursing a sluggish beer, you understand, but a different type, sprightly and amiable. You look at this thirty-something guy in regular-sized jeans and a faded baseball cap, always with an ebullient hello, and you think, what business does he have out here? Who is this guy? He changes the nature of the street corner. I always tap the horn and wave. Tonight I opened the doors, unsure if he wanted a ride, and we exchanged pleasantries. I like to put my hands together in prayer and bow towards him, and he excitedly returns the gesture. 

    AJ leaned out the door and greeted him as well. They exchanged words in Somalian which seemed similar in content; pleasantries on a Monday night, silhouettes under the amber streetlight.

    Afterwards, AJ said, "every time I see him over there, he's always happy."
    Now it was my turn to gleefully say, "yeeeah! I'm impressed, man. Anybody that could be happy in modern life, you know, that's impressive, dude. 'Cause it's not easy."
    "Yeah, it's not really easy. It's hard." 
    "Yeah."
    In his slow and definite voice: "It's kind uh cool to see other people happy, you know?"
    "Yeah, it brings people–"
    "Everybody loves doing–"
    "Yeah," I replied. "Everybody's goin' through it, fightin' their own little battles, their own big battles."
    "Alright, I'ma get off here."
    "Enjoy the last few months of school!"
    "Yup!"

    If a conversation can represent the trajectory of a life lived, I hope this one does. There's a switch that happens in the twilight days of adolescence, where you realize confidence matters more than bravado, individuality more than assimilation. All those things we thought it was that mattered. It was never about what pants you wore. It was how confident you were wearing whatever pants you had. How comfortable you were in your own skin. Why fit in when you were born to stand out? 

    By the end of our short talk, there were intimations of new possibilities, a few more beams laid on the foundation of another method, expressing emotions, expressing positivity, love, fear. The Way of the Samurai was in decline. He was one step further on the lifelong journey of selfhood, the careful carving out of his own outline, his own way. The Way of the AJ. 
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    Nathan Sees Rome

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    Here I go again, going to world-famous places only to get excited taking pictures of things like cigarette butts and scaffolding... don't you want to taste what ordinary life is like in these larger-than-life spaces? To see Trevi Fountain and then see the construction worker standing amongst it on his break, or walk through the Piazza Navona and take in not just the sculpture but the city cops in conversation, backlit by the setting sun? It's all about the details. 

    By popular demand, I'm putting more images on the site. Click here for the latest gallery of 35mm shots, this time all of Roma, along with an explanation of the approach.
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    The One-Eyed Man

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    Somewhere in the deep and ancient bowels of this blog there's mention of a thin, wiry old soul who once rode my 358. She was part of the methadone crowd. There was a time when she could walk without a walker. She used to scamper through the air. She was in her fifties, and she scampered. If you saw her from behind, you'd underestimate her age by at least three decades. I knew her when she was homeless, and when she wasn't. Now she has her own apartment, moves a little slower, and a friendly red walker joins her on her escapades. 

    We can't choose how time takes its toll on our bodies, but we can control much of how our minds age; hers remains spry, always with a ready grin when I show up. Stooped over her walker, a ninety-pound waif with a map of hardship and laughter writ softly on the lines of her face… I'll honk and wave from across the street, and she comes back to life, eagerly returning the wave. You never know how much a little effort like that can make someone's day, how it reminds them they live in the hearts of others. Dawna. She's known me longer than some of my closest friends. 

    "Alright, miz Dawna," I said as she was rising to leave my bus. "Thanks for stoppin' in!"
    "I'm blind in my left eye now," she said from behind her round spectacles. "If you're blind in one eye, does that mean you're blind?"
    "Well, I'm glad you still got that other one to work with."
    "Yeah, but I got cataracts in my right eye."
    "Well, you know what they say."
    "Huh."
    "In the land of the blind... the one-eyed man is king!"

    I don't know why I said that, or what compelled me to do so. It barely made sense. It was hardly relevant. 

    But it was the perfect response to that moment. Dawna processed the line, and then lit up the night sky with her devil-may-care grin. I still count for something, the line said. Out here in this crazy world, I've still got it. That was the true meaning of the sentence, and that particular sequence of words somehow burrowed the sentiment to a place where she could feel it and be proud. We smirked at each other, winking with our whole faces, and we knew as long as we reached out to each other, gave a little love, everything was going to be all right. 
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    20 Questions (Actually, 33) With Nathan Vass

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    Photograph by Susan Newbold.

    This interview very much falls under the "everything-you-always-wanted-to-but-were-afraid-to-ask" category. William Pennington interviews various local luminaries here in Seattle, and he's not afraid to go in depth. We really talk about everything here, and if you've ever wondered why bus tires aren't solid, whether or not there's "a Mt. Rushmore for bus drivers,", and what bus driving has to do with the myth of Sisyphus, this is your ticket! Click the link below for more, and enjoy!

    Thirty-Three Questions With Nathan Vass, Artist, Photographer, Filmmaker...And Metro Bus Driver
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    Office Hours

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    Photo by Victoria Holt.

    "Nathan! There's a friend who wants to meet you!" 
    This is a conversation that's happened more than once. I'll reply:
    "Well, tell them to come ride the 7 to Rainier Beach! At night!"
    "Um, ha! I don't think that'll go over so well!"

    I lovingly think of my route as my "office hours." Anyone can stop in, and everyone does. Office hours are designed to benefit students, and it's here the metaphor breaks down: I feel like I'm the one gaining the most, learning from what I see and hear. It's a terrific way to pass the time, listening to the world go by. Even better, though, are office hours where I'm not distracted by the fact of, you know, making sure people don't get killed….

    Which brings us to gallery sitting. What better place is there to chat than in the safe, spacious company of art and sunlight wafting through the windows? I might answer by suggesting extremely expensive, thirty-ton roving industrial vehicles filled with the perfect mixture of mentally stable and unstable people and constant interruptions, but that's just me. Galleries aren't so bad as a runner-up.

    Which brings us to May 20, when I'll be sitting at the gallery for the show I wrote up here, and which opened on the 4th. There's nothing urgent about this, really; it's a fun show, not a crucial one, and although the piece I have in it is personal to me, I do only have the one piece (the show is 33 "totally fake" record covers, each by a different artist).

    Openings are about seeing and being seen, but this isn't an opening. Office hours are better. Everyone's already come and gone, and now that the kerfuffle's died down there's actually time to sit down and talk. 

    Stop in if you like!

    700 1st (on Cherry, just east of 1st)
    Saturday, 5/20, 2:30-4:30