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    Movin' On

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    My jaw dropped in amazement and pleasure.
    “Sho Luv!!!” I exclaimed, as he stood before me at Third and Columbia, a resurrected friend from my bygone 358 days. "Oh my goodness!!!"

    He burst wide with a grin, the same grin he's always had, the kind of beaming smirk you feel is letting you in on a secret. Maybe he shares that with me because we hail from the same neighborhood in South Central LA, South Gate. I exclaimed, “I'm so happy to see you!"

    Sho Luv was too, and told me about recently seeing a driver just like me, getting his keys replaced, and other sundries of the morning.

    He settled in, sprawling out in the front side seats. Reflecting. “Last I seen you I think you was goin’ through a breakup,” he said. “Did you end up findin’ someone new?”

    I was impressed by his memory. (I'm just the bus driver!) The reality of the mess he alluded to was, and remains, too complicated to sum up in a sentence. You've been there. I’m in a better place now than I was, and by way of so intimating I said aloud, “I sure did!”
    He cackled. “Ah knew you would! Tha’s my dude! I knew it, you're still young….”
    “Your prophecy was correct!”
    “They say when somethin’ is taken away from you, the next thing to come around’ll be that much better.”
    “You know it! It's just so hard to see in the moment, right?”
    “Yeah, you were in deep feelin’ it. I remember. I used to call you Chris but your name is Nate, right?”
    “Yeah!”
    “Nate the Great!”
    “Exactly, Nate the Great. I'm not that great though!”

    He moved to deboard, here at 3rd and Pike (or simply "Ross,” as we call it out here), but changed his mind upon seeing the melee outside, which was a touch worse than the already unsightly norm.

    “Naw, I'll go to Virginia.”
    “Let's go to Virginia. Let all this mess die down a little.”
    He was looking outside. “What d’you make of all these zombies?”

    Maybe the term sounds derogatory from the remove of an office or home armchair. I know how using the right vocabulary is of utmost importance in today's more educated circles, and I appreciate such well-meaning value. But things work differently out here on the street. We find ourselves putting greater emphasis on action. The words don't have to be so perfect. If you spend enough time at “the Blade," not passing through it or going around it or reading about it but in it, Sho Luv’s intention reveals itself as less pejorative than mere descriptor: a blend of observation, sarcasm, dejection and concern. These are buddies of ours out here.

    “It's crazy,” I replied. “Yeah back then, that was, I was doin’ the E Line, it was the breakup, and it was pandemic, lockdown…”
    “That was the bad time. Everybody so dePRESSed.”
    “That was rough. All of it mixed together, I couldn't see straight.”
    “Whole city falling apart. And now we got all these zombies, kids killin’ kids, killin’ themselves, I don't even know.”
    “You know, I was driving this route, past Garfield last week when that kid killed the other kid. I was there right as it all got shut down.”
    “They were friends, too!”
    I said, “WHAT?”
    “Yeah. He intervened to break up the fight, and boom. All three of ‘em were friends, just horsin’ around. Kid was eighteen years old, jus’ ‘bout to graduate. And now, it's like they both dead now.”
    “Oh my goodness. That’s a heartbreaker. I had no idea they were buddies. He just got in there to break it up!”
    “Yeah.”
    “Like any reasonable person. Oh, man, that's heavy.”
    “And Garfield’s a Magnet school!”
    He'd read my mind. “Exactly Garfield that's one of our best schools!! I mean shootings shouldn't be happening anywhere, but they definitely don't happen at Garfield. It's Garfield!

    And then it was time to answer someone’s question, how to get to the Trailside Apartments, route 24. I heard Sho on his phone: “I be there in a couple minutes. Ah ran into my buddy from the bus line. Nate from South Gate! Yeah!”

    Sometimes the fact that Life has to keep going on feels insulting. Why can't the whole world pause, and take stock of itself? Sometimes you just want to sit and watch the rain. A young life was pointlessly wiped out. Where is the space for the paralysis we feel?

    But eventually life begins calling out to us, calling us back into the fray. It happens gradually. The grocery list. Phone calls, errands. Then friends. Maybe Life’s continuous, nigh-maddening onward march is exactly what we need. What are we to do, but learn and move forward? Do we stay paralyzed, or do we tend with care to those who are still around?

    We will choose to help them. We will tell them how to get to the Trailside Apartments. It's about the person next to us.

    I know that's what gotten me through my own hard times, comfortable though they are by comparison. Receiving that energy from others, but most of all giving it out, or trying to. Love. It is a thing we attempt, a verb, a project, and finally a noun that we acquire by giving away, giving it all away, all the time.

    Tending to the living. These can be the first steps.
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    On Acing It

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    Due to popular reaction this post will soon be reappearing here and elsewhere in more exciting fashion! Stay tuned!
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    Kehinde Wiley: The Morning After

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    This is a revised 2016 article focusing exclusively on Wiley's art and its relationship with craft and labour.
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    Some weeks ago I posted a glowing review of SAM's recent Kehinde Wiley show, which I loved. I stand by that review, but wish to add some context which I find troubling enough to consider necessary.

    I knew when I saw the show that Wiley didn't paint everything in the paintings, but the implications of both Wiley's and SAM's blasé attitude toward this enormous fact didn't hit me until after taking in the show a second time.

    The most disappointing element is the lack of demand by writers, thinkers and viewers to know who made the paintings and how. When concept takes center stage in the appreciation of art, talent, skill, and craftsmanship get relegated to secondary levels of importance, which means the authors of that skill and how they accomplish their work becomes less consequential. 

    To look through every one of the books on Wiley at the show and have none of them even address the multiplicity of authorship question is not simply an insult to viewers (does SAM really expect us to think a thirty-six year-old is this skilled and prolific in painting, glass, bronze, and marble?), but an embarrassment on the part of the authors and curators themselves. It guides the discussion into that tiring realm where concept is king, and craftsmanship is discussed only with superlatives because critics who have no experience in the art form can't talk about it in depth, and thus focus only on what they, and anyone else with extensive knowledge in realms besides painting and sculpture, can: content. 

    This divide becomes immediately apparent when listening to the difference between how tour guides talk when discussing art before vs. after the Modern period. Take a look at Fred Wiseman's mammoth fly-on-the-wall documentary National Gallery and listen to how the tour guides discuss Vermeer and Hans Holbein II. They talk about 1) craft and 2) how it expresses ideas. Tour guides of the Wiley show are saddled with the awkward task of discussing only the second part. I recall a particularly embarrassing moment at SAM wherein a viewer who happened to be a skilled stained-glass artist asked how a human hand could possibly accomplish the texture and shading of denim jeans on a single pane of glass, to which the poor tour guide had to reply that she had neither any idea how that was accomplished, nor who, or what, had accomplished it. 

    We can be blunt and overstate the point by quoting Tom Stoppard: "imagination without skill gives us modern art." But I argue the real villains in this case are not the artists but those who shape the discussion. Tom Wolfe's The Painted Word is instructive here. To forget that content and form are inextricably linked is to miss much of what is beautiful about art and the decisions artists make. We've heard the phrase "style over substance" leveled against films as a criticism; as I've written elsewhere, you generally hear that phrase from people who aren't filmmakers. The style in a worthwhile art piece is the substance. Style, or form, is the language through which the content is relayed to a viewer. Form lives and dies on the strength of the artist's talent. 

    Wiley's works would remain striking, in my opinion, after learning that he only paints touch-ups on the faces and some of the skin tones, that the figures and floral pattern work are painted by Chinese laborers, that the sculpture work is done by assistants, that the models are only paid a measly $20, and that the stained glass works are created entirely by individuals skilled in that realm (using photographs by Wiley as a base). The only thing that would suffer is Wiley's massive ego. We might also more easily understand the strange lack of passion one always detects upon inspecting a Wiley up close; an intricate but flat, uninspired collection of brushstrokes. No wonder. That the above authorship information is difficult to come by is disappointing on the part of Wiley and SAM, but so too is the lack of outcry on the part of viewers. 

    It thusly becomes understandable that Wiley declines journalist's visits to his studio, unless it's to have Martin Schoeller take a picture of him dabbing at a canvas while sitting atop a horse; that he tells reporters he doesn't want us to know to what degree his actual involvement is in the painting process, evading questions with coy comments about preserving his "secret sauce." This is where he differs from Brueghel and Botticelli. No artist of great skill hides his talent behind a cloak of coy false modesty. If you didn't paint it, but your students did, it gets signed "School of Michelangelo." There's an understanding that it was a group effort. Practices like these have remained better documented throughout history in part because the students et al nearly always, unlike the case with Wiley, hail from the same language and culture as the primary artist.

    I know what you're thinking. You're thinking, Chihuly. Koons. Crewdson. I say close, but no Kehinde. They're not quite  corollaries; these artists and others like them, who heavily involve assistants, don't shroud their processes in secrecy, but hold it open for all to see and determine the worth of the works. For heaven's sake, we all know Koons doesn't make his own stuff. 

    There's another, more troubling reason why Wiley stands alone here. Unlike the folks above, Wiley's work is explicitly intended to counter the subjugation of marginalized (black) people in Western Art. Personally I love the idea. So far, so great. How does he accomplish this? 

    By subjugating and rendering nameless the marginalized (Asian) peoples who create these artworks for him. 

    He's eliminating subjugation one heroic step at a time, using: subjugation. Let's flip the races around and see how it sounds. The twenty-first century's wealthiest white artist creates enormous volumes of high-impact portraits of Asians, rescuing them from repression and facelessness, by farming out the work to nameless black laborers in developing countries worldwide. In gut-busting levels of hubris, said artist refuses to credit or acknowledge the specific contributions of these black men and women in the name of preserving the mystique of his "secret sauce." 

    We're in the middle of what should be the biggest conversation in art right now.

    Most items we consume are created by hardworking poor people across the world who get zilch recognition. As China continues to develop and labor costs gradually rise, many manufacturing entities are opening plants elsewhere in the continued search for cheap labor. I don't appreciate this exploitative trajectory, but I can understand it. Wiley follows the trend, citing cost savings. However, he's in a financial position where this behavior is unnecessary. Kehinde Wiley is quite possibly the richest American artist of his generation. He doesn't need to be using social constructs of oppression in order to righteously attack social constructs of oppression. As one of many thousands of struggling artists of Asian descent, you can guess my perspective here.

    No, the fact that Wiley is barely involved with the hands-on element of his final works is not the scandal. The scandal isn't even that the authorship is kept an unanswered question. It's that the laborers, painters, stained-glass workers and sculptors are kept nameless and repressed, and no one notices, or even thinks to ask about it.

    That's the scandal. 

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    Further reading:

    Outsource to China, a detailed NY Magazine piece on Wiley, who candidly admits he often abandons his celebrated "street-casting" process.
    Kehinde Wiley's Dilemma: How the Artist Painted Himself Into a Corner With His New Works​Ben Davis explores Wiley's portraits of women at Sean Kelly.
    Background Considerations: Christian Frock considers the issues during Wiley's 2013 launch at the Contemporary Jewish Museum. 
    Nay Sayin': John James Anderson explores the degree to which Wiley "keeps it real."
    Stop Lionizing Kehinde Wiley's Paintings. Stop Dismissing Them, Too​by our own Jen Graves.

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    Nathan in Art Access

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    Art Access, the longstanding monthly catalogue, is comprised mostly of lists and announcements, informing readers of the month's Pacific Northwest art events. In addition to these listings, there are always (about) three feature articles which open the issue. You can pay to be listed in the directory of announcements. You can pay to have your artwork in the listings, or shown on the cover. But you can't pay to be the subject of one of those three feature articles. They decide that. How do they decide? No one knows. It's their secret sauce. I didn't invest any thought into even hoping they might choose me for their July 2023 issue, back when my solo show (more here and here) was happening. What made them decide to? How did they even know about me? Who knew Elizabeth Bryant and I would get along so well, spending an afternoon looking over work and discussing everything under the sun, going well over our allotted time in excited bonding.

    Like most of the special things that happen to us, I can't explain what led to this all transpiring. To some eyes it's just another article in another publication, quickly forgotten and replaced by other matters. But for me it is a thing I cherish, not because of the publicity boost it no doubt brought (my show had record attendance), but because of the serendipity involved, the people involved, the celebration of art and a fleeting but meaningful moment of connection. More than any other piece that's been written about my work, Elizabeth gets what my work is about, and what it aims to achieve. This is the best articulation so far of what I'm hoping to do with my practice. It's short and sweet, like everything about Art Access, but what Ms. Bryant conveys in a short space is admirable for being so accurate, and so succinct.

    Read it here!
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    Twilight Hindsight

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    I share love and respect because it feels good to do so. Nowadays we Seattleites are not expecting such things. People walk past me, past everyone, with eyes averted, earbuds plugged in. They assume they are hated and judged, and thusly I become invisible. They notice only what they expect. Just the other night I'd started saying, “hello–” when the guy boarding screamed so loudly everyone instantly looked up: “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”

    Tonight I explained to a passenger, "They think I'm mad at them, and I haven't even done anything!"
    She burst out laughing. "Honey, if they think you're mad… it's them tha's got somethin’ wrong with them! I been riding your bus for how long now? It should be obvious to any, to any sane human, that you're respectful, tha' you tryna be nice!"

    And yet, if you're as convinced of the world being against you as some of these folks are, you won't see anything else, obvious or otherwise.

    I feel like an anomaly these days. Life in the developed world post-2020 is all about escape– from reality, obligation, introspection and most of all, other people. In this manner some find an overlap between fentanyl and smartphone addiction, as both seek to reduce sensory experience, to remove us from reality. I enjoy phones as a tool but I aim in the opposite direction, seeking refuge in the present, in direct contact with others. 

    I still say hello because maybe, just maybe, it’ll reach them. Shutting the world out is easier, yes, but we forget after a while how good it feels to connect with others. The sensation of belonging. I want to offer that, keep it alive. 

    Here is a woman with more than twenty Safeway grocery bags laid out on the bus stop sidewalk. I step off the bus and help carry the bags aboard not because I like her (I don’t), not because it was smart to buy that many groceries and have no way to carry them (it wasn’t), but because she's human.

    And because it's what the best version of myself would do. You know this feeling. As I duck in and out the front doors with bags in hand, an elderly Somalian woman tells me, “You’re a good driver.” She had never spoken to me before. Yes, part of me melted inside.

    Later, while the grocery-laden woman was cursing someone out and as I helped her with her last bags stepping out, I found myself chatting with a regular on the sidewalk. He leaned on his cane.
    "You know, the last two buses passed her up."
    I looked at the massive quantity of ice cream she'd spilled on the bus floor. Fentanyl annihilates blood sugar levels, which is why you see people huffing down stolen Tillamook and Ben & Jerry's on street corners everywhere now.
    "Well, I don’t blame ‘em," I said. We do need operators who'll pass this sort of thing up, or else no fare-paying passenger would ever get anywhere. But my issue is that I'm Nathan.

    "My problem is, I’m too nice, man! I can’t help myself!"

    "Hey, nothin’ wrong with that!"
    A couple of strangers standing around in the comfortable twilight. I talk to older folks more regularly now. They get it. There will always be those of us who like to gab it up. I leaned against the zone flag and said, "My question is, how the heck is she gonna get all this stuff home?"
    He chuckled. "I know, right?"
    "You gotta think about stuff like that when you’re at the store!"

    We vary in our capacity for abstract thought. Some of us think ahead, and some of us don't. In more than one way, she didn't, but at the end of the day those details fall away like so much chaff. Years from now I will not remember her particulars. There will simply be the memory that I helped someone that day, stretching my legs and talking to the person next to me, trying to be my best self. 

    The memory will contain the fact that it felt good to do so.
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    Embracing the Struggle

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    Short one this time– I post new material on the 1st of every month. Check back went rent is due!

    I've been working later than usual, at an inconvenience to myself (no transit runs to my home in those wee hours), because it's so deeply satisfying. Something happens after 23h00, cruising down Rainier, nodding and waving goodnight to my regulars. Why do the stakes feel lower, the world smaller and more your own, with more space and time to be? 


    In the midst of the evening 7's fifteen-minute frequency, there's a 30-minute gap in the southbound service at about 22h30. It's a scheduling error, and it's been there for years. I've given up complaining about it. There couldn't be a worse time for a gap in nighttime service: the 22h00 hour contains a "rush hour echo" as the swing shift workers make their way home. My 23h00 trip is filled with a double load not of sleepers, but commuters.

    I knew about that issue for a long time before realizing this past year that I'd picked a piece nearly every night containing that very trip. The busiest consistent nighttime trip on the 7. I sighed when I discovered this, but now I feel a strange relish doing it. You feel important, carrying two trips worth of people who actually need to be somewhere. These guys want to go home. For some reason Metro assigns a small bus on the run every night, so it's packed; but we make it work. While the institutions fail us, we can tend to each other. I greet them with a smile, with respect and love. By now they know me. No one complains. We're doing what we can, happy to be here.


    It is hard, yes, but good. Why choose easy? When did easier become better? Are not the harder thing, and the right thing, usually the same? What is living, if not embracing struggle?