The sound of guns, especially automatic weapons fire, does not bring me joy. The mixture of alcohol, weapons and explosives... it's no environment to do much of anything in, and definitely not to drive an electric bus connected to 750 volts of overhead trolley wire. As an older passenger said, "those bullets come down, too!"
The bottom two-thirds of Rainier was an unending cavalcade of pops, booms, and crackles; clusters and aberrations in the soundscape, a celebration not of an event, not history, certainly not the founding of a country, but the act of celebrating itself.
Understand, reader, how far a cry this is from the choreographed and legitimately wonderful spectacle North Seattle gets to witness at Gas Works Park. These scattered potshots and the bullets between them were never big enough to be beautiful, never elaborate enough to provoke awe. The odor of burnt flame and aggression, acrid, not quite right; sparkles booming in your periphery, up above but also in the dank side alleys, glimpses of under-controlled blazes where you normally see children and forgotten furniture.
What will I remember of this July 4th, other than the sensation of having survived a battle upon making it out of the Valley, and entering into another upon going back down?
I'll remember the face of an East African man, appropriately inebriated for the holiday but confused. It was my second time seeing him that day, and this time around he was immaculately attired. Look at that crisp royal blue three piece, tailored; an offset burgundy tie set against a white dress shirt, with matching white handkerchief peeking out of the breast pocket, just so; coiffed hair and jet black shoes, shined so slick I could almost see myself in the reflection.
"My brother," he said, after I congratulated him on how sharp he looked. "My brother, what's going on, I don't understand. This holiday, what does it mean? What does it mean to you?"
"Well, we never celebrated it growing up. Korean household,"
"Okay okay, but no, but what does it mean to them?"
"Well, it's celebrating the, the beginning of the country,"
"The flag. Crossing the river."
"Yeah the flag, yeah,"
"It's a holiday, people should be out having good time, going to the club! Everything is closed! The Esquire, Royal Room... why people want to blow stuff up, fire their guns? I came to get away from that bullshit. These motherfuckers don't know. What happened to people want to dance? It's a holiday! They should dance and be happy! I got all dressed up like this to go out!"
He didn't want to shoot stuff. He just wanted to dance.
Maybe one day we all will.